There are drugs that help you remember what you learn, and ones that erase your memory. But until now, there have no substances with the power to enhance and strengthen old memories hovering on the brink of being forgotten.
I remember reading once that the ability to forget is as important as the ability to remember.
i feel very very disconnected, in different ways, all of them frustrating.
in my selfish stupid way i want things to go back to the way they were- and it feels ridiculous to be feeling nostalgic and old at 24 but what the fuck.
last summer was full of beach days and drunk lands and pot lucks and parks and it just doesn’t feel the same anymore. i feel like i’m losing people in all directions- to marriage or serious relationships, jobs in other places, the little inconveniences that suddenly make it all too inconvenient.
and the biggest problem is that it’s 75% my fault- because i’m not good at staying in touch or organizing. i’m lazy and not innately wonderful at being social (in that if left to my own devices i would do just that- leave myself to my own devices). so i’d like to apologize for being so bad at staying connected, keeping in touch, being there.
I haven’t listened to an fm music station in about 6 months (which accounts for my aging parent-worthy lack of knowledge about comtemporary rap/pop/whatever) due to both the calming voices of NPR reporters with names like Cherry Glazer (that can’t possibly be real, right?) and my ipod.
However, turning on the radio the other day and attempting to listen to just about anything semi-rock related (KROQ, STAR, even KISS), I’ve decided that I might as well have gone back in time, or been stuck in some Groundhog’s Day music-related world in which absolutely nothing has changed.
New Rule (Bill Maher-style): We now must designate one, and only one, music station which will ceaselessly play, 27/7, Nirvana, Foo Fighters, and Red Hot Chilli Peppers. Then, and only then, can every other station just get on with their lives.
At one point in time I was a fan of each and every one of these groups, bought all of their albums, attempted to understand the tourettes-style word gibberish of the Red Hot Chilli Peppers, the poetry in flannel style of Nirvana, but seriously- DEAR GOD, CAN WE FIND SOMETHING ELSE TO LISTEN TO?
It’s come to the point where it’s just filler music, something that must be played every 15 minutes so DJ’s can attempt and fail at finding something new and interesting. I now relate any of the aforementioned bands to the radio stations shrugging in a half-hearted apology and then going back to surfing the internet, or whatever it is that they do that’s keeping them from adventuring out into the real music world.